Not so good...

So I am feeling like doody, it was nice. I crawled into bed with MB right before they went to sleep. She rubbed my back for a few minutes. It was really nice. So I have body aches, and I just generally feel like crap. I had a fever earlier and I am pretty hungry. 

I haven't been having the best thoughts. I haven't been doing so well with my reading. I am beginning to wonder if I really should go back to Texas. The things... the things... I want to talk to Sariah... I will tomorrow.

There really isn't anything new going on. Still looking for a job. Same ol same going on. I am a little worried about the transfers going on tonight. I am also a little worried about us getting a douche bag in. I just don't want to lose a friend. I am pretty sure that they will stay the same. What if they don't? Will that make the next one even harder? Am I getting too attached? I really don't think I am. I just have made friends, and it seems that as soon as I get to trusting them.... they go away.  Oh well.

S

Much better than last time!

So I went in for another Bishop's meeting, it went way better this time. There were a few things that I just generally needed to talk to him about and there were a few things that he had planned to talk to me about. The mission thing was the same, still there still trying to figure things out. The nursery calling still there, but now that I have embraced it as a wonderful thing and not a burden it seems to be helping a lot. The temple, I think that as long as I keep working at the pace that I am going with, I will have my temple recommend before I know it. Even if I do have to wait until I am 25 to get it. I am just passing the time and doing my best. There is some temple work that I want to do in April, and I am trying to do what I can to prepare for that. I am excited for that too.  The biggest thing: I am getting my patriarchal blessing recommend. I get to get it next month! I am so extremely excited about it, also guess what I wanted to get it with another friend and go with them but they had theirs already. Well I know that it is a little bad to say but things worked out to where they couldn't get it. Now I am going to have mine soon and I think that I am going to get to go with them. I am UBER-excited about that!! Woot!

I am here in Missouri, everything is going well. I got to meet everyone... it was fun. I am just way WAY tired. I want to text some people but I don't want to seem pushy on them so I am laying off for a bit... can't wait to be home...

S

Awesome sleep!

So I have had a little trouble sleeping recently, I don't know what the cause of it is, but I do have to say that I got freakin sweet sleep last night, and I felt amazing when I woke up. Also, I like someone, genuinely like him. I don't want to get into details of who(m?) <~~~ NOT SURE IF THE M SHOULD BE THERE. Anyways, he is way awesome, and I love talking to him. I just don't know how he feels about me and I don't know if he ever would feel that way. Although I have it in good mind that he does reciprocate some sort of feelings.

Church was pretty good today, the kids were decent, although there were only 4 kids in class with three teachers. I thought about asking if I could go to relief society but I didn't just cause I didn't know how well that would go over. Also it seems the bishopric knows that I have been thinking about going to the singles ward. I don't really care that they know, I was just curious as to how. It's not a big deal though. Tee Hee, I also got blown off/dissed by an eleven year old. It was rather funny, it is Robin's daughter. You'll know why when your read below, but she talked to Jorden and when I asked her how she was doing, she just looked away. Silly kids :D!

OOH... I quit my job yesterday. I felt bad until MB helped me figure out what I was going to do and helped me talk to some people. Although I did wimp out and Sariah <~~~ LOVE HER took my keys inside for me, so I wouldn't have to see Robin. We went to go to the movies last night, and it seemed that it wasn't written in the stars. We went to one place in Summerville and they were sold out, then we went to a place in North Charleston and they weren't even showing the movie. So we ended up going to Denny's and just chatting and eating. There were these UBER rude women there, they had their phones out on the table and they were playing music, it was pretty ridiculous. Also Sariah, called the cops on this stupid driver. She was all over the road, and she was superdy duperdy reckless. Also hen Jenn was turning onto Crowfield, there was this retarded black guy, dressed in dark clothing that ran out into the road and flashed a sign for a moving sale. It was insane, Jenn almost hit him and then when she honked, he flipped her off. It was pretty crazy. Oh well, I am pretty sure that we are going to try the movie thing again on Tuesday.

TTFN
S

My favorite People!

Just a thought...

So I am laying here just thinking, thinking about how the world is as it is. Life isn't terrible but there are a lot of things I could do to improve my situation. I love who I have become. Who knew that just a thing as simple as going back to church and finding my true faith that I would feel better about myself. Now I am thinking about what I can do to find someone. I am not used to being alone, and I am not used to not having friends all around me. I don't care how long I live out here, I don't think I ever will be. I am not a social butterfly but my life seems to make more sense when I am helping other people. I love taking care of people. I know that in the hustle and bustle I tend to forget to take care of myself. That sucks sometimes, but I am going crazy. The point of this one is to vent about my lack of a love life. I have a few people that i am interested in but there is nothing reciprocated. I know that there is nothing. There is one guy that I don't necessarily want to be with (I wouldn't mind it) but I want someone like him. I hear him talk about his ex-'s and I am just amazed that there are really guys out there that are that kind and loving. I am seriously raising my standards every time I talk to him. It seems that I have seen the lower side of the people and now I want to see the higher. I am tired of having to force relationships to work, and just settling. I want to find someone that shares my beliefs, feelings, goals (although I don't know what my aspirations really are), and just as basic as liking my flavor of toothpaste. I know that we will have our differences, and I know that it will kill me to give up some stuff but hey, he will feel the same about some of his stuff. I just want to find someone that I can love forever. I have my friends, and I wouldn't change them for the world. They are the greatest people in the world, and I love every single one of them.  I just want to find someone to be there through it all! Also I want to extend a super special thanks to a certain someone for being there and always knowing just what to say. Thank you for just being there no matter what, and just listening.... you are amazing and I truly love you with all my heart.

Later Days,

S

New Years was kinda...

So new years was kinda a drag, we went to the Charleston in the park at Marion Square, it was pretty fun I guess, there were some really awesome parts where we laughed like there was no tomorrow. MB and I have been doing alright, she and I have been arguing again. I just don't know what to do or say to her. I am stuck.... I love it here and I am so glad that she lets me stay here. 

So on a side note I am going to be looking for a new job soon, the one that I have right now is CRAP! I get paid minimum wage and my hours have been cut like crazy. I just want to get out of there. Everyone is looking for another job from what I assume, the store just sucks... 

After the marion square thing, I made Nick go out to another friends apartment for milk shakes, it was pretty awesome and I love going over there. I feel almost normal when I am there. There are also a few more friends that I love to go visit. I feel like I am back home when I hang with them. So after the milk shakes we ended up sitting on the couch and just playing on the computer and talking until Midnight, then we played guitar hero....

No kiss on new years!

S