Sunday, June 14, 2009

When the spirit touches me....

Today was an amazing Sunday, it was the first sunday in a month that I have been able to go to church.

A little background, I have been having a little trouble with a friend, not gonna get into too much detail cause I don't know the details myself. I am just sitting back and waiting for things to calm down and for life to go back to normal...

So church was just speaking to me today, in relief society we went over Forgiveness...

Matthew 18:17-35

17And if he shall neglect to hear them, tell it unto the church: but if he neglect to hear the church, let him be unto thee as an heathen man and a publican.

18Verily I say unto you, Whatsoever ye shall bind on earth shall be bound in heaven: and whatsoever ye shall loose on earth shall be loosed in heaven.

19Again I say unto you, That if two of you shall agree on earth as touching any thing that they shall ask, it shall be done for them of my Father which is in heaven.

20For where two or three are gathered together in my name, there am I in the midst of them.

21Then came Peter to him, and said, Lord, how oft shall my brother sin against me, and I forgive him? till seven times?

22Jesus saith unto him, I say not unto thee, Until seven times: but, Until seventy times seven.

23Therefore is the kingdom of heaven likened unto a certain king, which would take account of his servants.

24And when he had begun to reckon, one was brought unto him, which owed him ten thousand talents.

25But forasmuch as he had not to pay, his lord commanded him to be sold, and his wife, and children, and all that he had, and payment to be made.

26The servant therefore fell down, and worshipped him, saying, Lord, have patience with me, and I will pay thee all.

27Then the lord of that servant was moved with compassion, and loosed him, and forgave him the debt.

28But the same servant went out, and found one of his fellowservants, which owed him an hundred pence: and he laid hands on him, and took him by the throat, saying, Pay me that thou owest.

29And his fellowservant fell down at his feet, and besought him, saying, Have patience with me, and I will pay thee all.

30And he would not: but went and cast him into prison, till he should pay the debt.

31So when his fellowservants saw what was done, they were very sorry, and came and told unto their lord all that was done.

32Then his lord, after that he had called him, said unto him, O thou wicked servant, I forgave thee all that debt, because thou desiredst me:

33Shouldest not thou also have had compassion on thy fellowservant, even as I had pity on thee?

34And his lord was wroth, and delivered him to the tormentors, till he should pay all that was due unto him.

35So likewise shall my heavenly Father do also unto you, if ye from your hearts forgive not every one his brother their trespasses.

To forgive no matter how big or small the trespass is, is pertinent to redemption. It seems that I am having a little trouble forgiving myself for a few of my past transgressions. Well lots of my past transgressions... there are things in my past that I feel I will never be able to forgive myself for. Forgiveness is all inclusive, upon forgiving others we must also forgive ourselves for the repentance process to begin. By not forgiving we are pretty well trying to say that we are working with satan. Who are we to not forgive when God forgives everything?

Forgiveness is on two parts, we must first forgive the action, then we must also forgive the actor. It seems that when we generally forgive we really only forgive the person but we still hold spite and malice towards the action, thus not actually forgiving anyone at all...

I say unto you, that likewise joy shall be in heaven over one sinner that repents, more than over ninety and nine just persons, which need no repentance. Luke 15:7

I know this is incomplete, and I can't believe I didn't finish it. ARGH! but I hope you enjoy the first part!!