Lo Tujo es Mio, lo mio es tujo....

So yesterday we went on the temple trip, it was alot of fun. I actually started talking to people and I had just this amazing experience there. I loved it, we went to do baptisms for the dead and it was so much fun. I kinda hope two people would be there, one had a reason not to be there, and the other well he and I don't talk.

I ended up getting like 4 new numbers yesterday, which is awesome. Now I actually have a connection to these people. I texted for a little bit last night. Maybe i'm finally fitting in somewhere. I loved the fact that Bishop told me that every time I go to the temple it is to learn. I didn't kno how I was going to learn this time, but I think God took over and kinda taught me as opposed to making me figure it out. I was the second one to go and Fred came up to me and started asking me ho I was feeling, I told him and he asked me why the baptismal font was below ground level, and explained a little about the symbolism that is going on there. It was really cool. He gave me the rest of the time to ponder about the font, and then at the end, he pretty well taught me how to look it up myself. I answered his question correctly, and then he asked me a few more questions about the font and I actually started understanding the makings of the font. It was really awesome! We went out to Rush's afterwards, and it wasn't the best burgers ever but they were pretty decent. I had alot of fun talking with Jeanine, Louisa, Debby, and Ashley. Keri was a big help too, she was so awesome and pretty well kept me under her wing. I think I am gonna go thank her for all of her help yesterday!

So Neil and Mary leave today for Texas, they are gonna be gone for 2 weeks, and I am just a little nervous as to what I am gonna do for two whole weeks. Oh well. I will manage, and if anything I can always go to Shannon's or Sariah's (UGH I STILL NEED TO CALL HER!) Dangit!

Should I mention he's rich....

So I was kinda bored, I went through a time today when I was thinking about what I wanted.

1. I want someone that will play with my hair.

2. I want someone that will let me put my head in his lap during a movie.

3. I want someone that lets me kiss his hands.

4. I want someone that will play with my toes.

5. I want someone that does small kisses on my neck.

6. I want someone that has laugh lines.

7. I want someone that furrows his brow.

8. I want someone that loves to make me smile.

9. I want someone that watches me walk away.

10. I want someone that tells me when I look fat.

11. I want someone that scratches my back.

12. I want someone that loves to look into my eyes.

13. I want someone that likes to rest his hand on my butt.

14. I want someone that watches whatever I want on t.v.

15. I want someone that texts me just to say hi.

16. I want someone that listens to me ramble.

17. I want someone that actually rambles right back.

18. I want someone that leaves me notes.

19. I want someone that loves songs.

20. I want someone that loves animals.

21. I want someone that loves the church.

22. I want someone that will keep me strong.

23. I want someone that will stay strong, no matter what.

24. I want someone that likes that I don't like storms.

25. I want someone that will just listen to me breathe.

26. I want someone that dances.

27. I want someone that window shops.

28. I want someone that just lets me lay my head in his lap during the times I want to.

I could go on forever with these things....

So I kinda....

So I kinda wanna try and get better at this whole blog thing. I have been in kinda a bad mood recently. I can't seem to get out of this funk. I swear every time God gives me lemons, I end up adding too much sugar and screwing up the lemonade. I had some trouble at work the past month. They put me in the Mini-mart and I couldn't catch a break. There in one person there that is pretty well the matriarch and she kept making snide comments. Of course she led everyone else there so if she had a problem with me everyone did. It finally got to the point that my last day there, no one talked to me. It's whatever though.

I have been hanging out with Shannon, she is really cool, I haven't been hanging with Sariah so much, which I regret every single day. I have just been so busy. MB and family leave this Saturday for a trip to Texas. I want to see my other sister so bad. I miss her like crazy. I have been back at the main store for two days now, I found out that one of my only friends there, his last day, is the 28th. I am pretty bummed about that. Other than that work is pretty boring. There have also been a couple of big things going on with my friends, I just don't want to get into it. 

I am talking to Nick right now, I can't seem to find a date with someone I actually want to go out with. I have been going to the singles ward, but it seems that everyone there is pretty cliquey, I don't seem to fit in. There a couple of guys there that I wouldn't mind dating. 

I have been hanging out with Christian quite a bit. Yes, I admit, I have actually been hanging out and talking to someone that lives in the same state as me. I talked to Hurst for a bit the other day, he is calmed down quite a bit. I have been talking to D off and on for awhile, he is doing really well. Talk to Nick all the time obviously. Oh, nick is coming down in August to hang out. I can't wait. It is only like 3 more months away. I know that sounds like forever but it will be here before I know it. Talked to Heaps and Wallace for just a min the other day, I miss those two like freakin crazy! I actually got to hang out with Wallace, Earl, Zookell, and Bjarnson (BJ) on monday. They were pretty cool. I hope to hang with them some more. I am just glad that they are getting along. Heaps goes home in like 2 weeks. CRAZY! I KNOW! 

I have been making a real attempt at doing things with people, I just have my own reasons for not doing things. I just worry that I am keeping myself from meeting people. Well not me exactly. Anyways, another one of those subjects I am not gonna touch. 

I have been listening to music alot lately. I can't seem to get some songs out of my head, they stick with me. I love music. I don't care how bad my day has been I just seem to chill out and calm down with music. 

As I sit here and type, I can't help but remember what someone said, that I do too much, and I don't know how to say no. I think that I am just a loving and caring person that does stuff for people but I think that I have enough control to  say no. Maybe, it's just a way that I feel accepted, maybe it is just me being weird. Maybe i just like to feel needed, that is why people unload their problems on me. I know that I am a good listener, and that I give good advice. Maybe it's just me....

Steph