The reason for the season is pride and ego... RIGHT?!?!?

So I have been beating myself up alot recently, I have just been in a funk and I can't seem to grasp the Christmas spirit. I can't stop thinking gosh why can't I just lower my pride adn ego and accept it. It's frustrating to know that my pride is this huge. We just talked about this in institute the other day and yet I am still hung up on it. The closer it gets to Christmas the more I can't push it away. I almost cried in the movies last night. During the opening credits. It wasn't even anything major going on, it was just the opening thing. I just can't stop thinking about my pride and it kills me inside to know that I am this ignorant. Argh... Merry Christmas Everyone!